Dec 31, 2007

Stepping Into A Really Good Story

Tonight at nine, I've signed up to be in the prayer room at church. Several of my friends will be there at differing times. Even the midnight spot is spoken for and I can't help but think 'Wow. What a way to bring in the new year than to be in prayer, to be in purposeful communication with God'.

We're doing this for a few days because tomorrow is the beginning of that thing I've been hinting around about, Miracle Word. The forum is up and going, I'm on there, several of my friends are on there, and several people from around the country are as well. We're going to read the Bible, beginning at the beginning and go through it one day at a time. But not just read it.

I'm doing it a little differently, I'm going to read the Message Remix version and I'm going to stop trying to fit the words into my life. I'm going to fit my life into Scripture and live it, kind of like a good novel. But of course, better. I've got a lot of hope about this, I need that now. I'm hopeful this will transform me and that when I emerge I will come out of this a better person, a person who's been there. In that whale along with Jonah, next to Job as he tears his clothes from his body in anguish, and sitting in that boat alongside the disciples while they watched (jaws dropped I imagine) as Jesus walked to them, on top of that water.

It's going to be a lot of things for me, I expect to feel excitement, anger, sadness, hope, elation, grief, disbelief, awe....and more.

Before I sound too much like a preacher (I'm still me, a little 'off' and a lot tuned into my friends) I just want to add that at anytime you feel drawn to join in, it's be very cool to do this together, to talk on the forum about the day's reading, what it invoked in your life that day, if anything. Click the link (it's over at Christian Women Online too) and it'll tell you where to start. And...if you want a hard copy of that book that the forum talks about, I've got 'em, let me know, I'll mail you one on the house if you want to give this a go.

May your new year be blessed, my friends. This will be incredibly difficult to face for me, as most of you know our beautiful daughter has chosen not to be part of our family for now. It's unbearably hard and I don't know how to make it right. I can't, so even though I've tried over and over, today I am laying this heavy burden down and am handing it to God to take care of. Because I cannot anymore. I love her beyond love and I'll be waiting for her if she chooses to return, arms open and heart softened. This Miracle Word couldn't come at a better time.

PS--if you haven't taken the tree down already, I leave you with a little tip, something I learned on my own several years ago. Those silver hooks look so innocent and fragile. Yes you look at it, you tower over it and laugh wickedly as you prepare to snag it up with your vac, because you and your vacuum are farrrr more powerful than it is. And two hours later after your hubby has extracted all of them from the thingy-majiggy it's caught up on along with the gift tag you didn't tell him you sucked up too, you're probably not imagining it. Those were of teeny tiny little giggles resonating from the trash can. Stuuuupid hooks.


Angela WD said...

What a beautiful way to start the new year. I haven't heard of miracle word but I am checking it out immediately. My goal this next year is to draw closer to God.

I hadn't heard about your daughter but my heart breaks for you. I pray that God will ease the pain this year. Our teen hasn't left home yet, but several times she's seriously considered living with her dad and it was horribly painful. How beautiful that you're ready to receive her back as your prodigal daughter.

Thanks for the hook tip, by the way. I think I've done something pretty similar. Yikes.

Cheryl said...

Stacey, you are on the right track, girlfriend! I LOVE how you put it -- that you are going to put your life in the Scripture. Awesome! God's Word is always a balm to our souls. God will bless you for the time you spend with Him!

I am still praying for your family. While you are delving into the Scriptures, you might also want to take a look at the book Loving a Prodigal by Wright. (I can't see the first name but the Amazon link is on my blog.) That book helped me a lot.

I can't wait to hear about the things God will be teaching you as you grow in your journey this year! :)

Happy New Year!

Donna said...

I have a one-year Bible and always try to read through it; but I'll check out this link also.

Anonymous said...

Turning it over to God is always the best thing to do, but oh how hard it can be. It is especially hard when it involves one of our children. I love that you are doing the Miracle word and the prayer spots at church. I know that will bring some level of peace and stillness into your heavy heart. I am so sorry that she is making the choices she is making, but remember, that is how she will learn and grow. She will be a better and stronger person, when this phase is over.


Happy New Year, my friend!

Bubba's Sis said...

I, too, am blessed to start 2008 with your friendship, Stacey! I'm still praying for you and your family - and will throughout the year! Blessings to you...and Happy New Year, Friend.

Trinity said...

Wishing you a very happy new year, Stacey dear!! I love your beautiful family and will always pray for you all... *hugs to you!!*

I have The Spreader of Love award for you and GIGI.. come over when you are not busy ok?

D... said...

Happy New Year, Stacey. Let God handle your burden, keep those arms wide open, and know that I have faith that she will return to her family. I don't know how long it will take her, but I do know that one day, she'll see the light. You have given her too much love & guidance these 18 years for it not to happen. In the meantime, ya'll will still be wrapped in prayer.

Girl Gone Wild - BibleStyle said...

I can't believe I haven't been over here (or ANYWHERE for that matter) since Christmas Eve! It wasnt' planned...having the hubby home is VERY time consuming. Then I start my job tomorrow.


I will be updating my blog to show the Mircle Word button/link and a few other updates before this week is up! Dang it!

I've really missed you, Gidge...

tegdirb92 said...

I too have been subjected too to those silver daggers called ornament hooks. They get stuck in the nap of the carpet--but I didn't decorate this year so, I miss that!!

Wendy said...

Stacey, I think bringing in a new year in prayer like that is an awesome idea, I'm going to talk to my pastor about doing it at our church next year (wish I'd thought of it!)

This year will be the second time I read the Bible entirely through (last year was my first, yay!) I'd love to get a copy of the book and join in on the forum. If you still have copies, please email me.

My heart goes out to you and your family over the situation with your daughter. I know it all too well. Though I haven't shared it on my own blog, we've been through a series of trials with my own 19-year-old (though she was briefly here on Christmas break to see my father, which I thanked God for.) I've been reminded by several close people, and myself, that I put her in God's hands and have to leave her there. It's the most painful thing I've faced, harder than my mother's death. Her choices are and will be her own. What I can do is pray, faithfully. Calling on God's power in her life is the best thing I can do. I'll be praying for you and your daughter as well.